all that is to come
01.25.06

it's time to pray. i've been leaving God out of my decisions a little too much recently, i think. turns out life, or maybe God, is giving me choices to consider, and it just leaves me feeling a little confused. yesterday afternoon i paid a visit to the job fair at aum to speak with the fbi agent handling their table. after having a pretty cool conversation with him, i've been enlightened on a couple of things.

to get where i wanna go in life, i have to make myself competitive. basically, a masters in criminology or criminal justice isn't gonna cut the mustard unless i intend on doing detective work for a while or joining montgomery's finest. i'm looking at either becoming a cpa, a computer scientist, a mexican, or the best choice out of all of these...

a lawyer.

yep. thanks to 9/11 and the changes it brought to the fbi, i have to go through law school. imagine that- me, the honorable david a. oleksa, j.d. i have to spend the next 4 years doing law school, get my juris doctorate, and then pass the bar before i can even competitively be considered for an agent position. nice, huh? now i'm not cynical about this whole deal. i just wish i could get some clarity from God on these big steps and transitions. realistically, though, i don't think God's going to work that way. He never does at times like these. i'm going to have to put all of this in His hands and let Him guide me wherever He plans for me to go. of course that sounds easy to read, but i get a little bit of heaviness in my guts just knowing that i'll be giving up so much control for the next however long. that's not easy!

had a little moe's with jen today to spend some time together and talk about the current craziness of graduate studies. it was her idea that we should pray about these things. i gotta give her credit; she keeps me sane sometimes when i think i'm about to lose it. i'm telling God that He has control (as if He didn't to begin with) and asking that He'd lead me in the right directions as far as the general timeline, law school, location, relationship stuff (as in love & marriage, and a ring even!).

so i figure it's almost february and, hopeless romantic that i am... which i am... today's post is ending with a good quote from the very quotable mark twain.

"grief can take care of itself, but to get the full value of joy you must have somebody to divide it with."

well ain't that something to chew on softly?

i promise to eliminate all use of ain't from my vocabulary once i move away from alabama.

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