choices choices choices
i think i'm going to apply to an online program for my masters. of course, i will still be aiming for a move to atlanta as soon as graduation day arrives. heck yes! but yeah, i met with dr. harris this past weekend and discussed what makes for a competitive applicant when it comes to federal government jobs of the investigative variety. bottom line: i need a masters in criminology, and a job in some related field wouldn't hurt, whether it's in criminal justice or behavioral science. so now i'm on the lookout for a job in the atl, plus getting ready to apply to a school or 2 here in the next week. listening to some of dr. harris' recommendations, and doing some research of my own, i came across sam houston state university, which has an awesome criminology program, so they are top priority on the grad school list. still looking for another just in case, but for now it's good ol' shsu!
it's times like these when i'm making important decisions that i realize what a lovesick fool i am. i can't for the life of me make a single selfish choice without thinking about jen. and that's not a bad thing either. everything i do, i ask myself, "is this going to keep me close to jen?" it's like breathing or eating or something. sometimes i wonder if i'm some sort of human parasite leeching all of the love she can give, but then i realize, no, she's just my lobster (obvious friends reference there). there's a vase full of a dozen roses sitting on her dining room table right now. i wonder if she smells them every morning she sees them before she goes to work. gosh, i'm in love. my work schedule doesn't help that out much, but hopefully i'll have some more time once i get an extra day off each week. currently i work 7 days a week. ugh.
things i've been thinking about lately
1. why do i have this gut feeling of spite toward certain people who i don't really even know?
2. what book am i going to read next?
3. when am i going to call john owen?
4. how can i make sure to not fall into gossiping like my other co-workers?
5. will i ever fall into that "eddie bauer phase" that i joke about so much?
6. am i counting my chickens before they've hatched?
7. how am i going to surprise jen next?
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