it gets happier toward the bottom
11 October 2005

hmmm... i'm changing things again. i'm getting tired of only swapping out colors and pictures every season, and think it's time for some work on my design. not that i really have time to back this decision up, seeing how i've recently found out that i am financially poorer still than i thought was possible. it sucks when you expect over 10k for a loan but only get 4.5k instead. yeah, i needed that moola big-time, and it fell through, which means frantic scrambling on my part to find money somewhere, anywhere. it's crazy, i find myself quite often wishing, "God, if You would just relieve this one thing, i would be alright. just please can i have an ounce of financial redemption por favor?" but nope, not the case.

at least i'm trying hard to get this stuff fixed. it's just frustrating, and it leaves me feeling like a bit of a disappointment, because money situations leave me disabled from doing other things. not that i'm looking to buy a house yet, or get a new car, but it would be nice to know that i had the means to save like i want to and, oh, i don't know... maybe get a small round object that fits on a certain finger just so while also paying off debt i still owe to abilene "we-cost-you-18-grand-plus-your-soul-for-a-single-year-here" christian university. it's getting more and more evident that i need to get another job, as well as start passing over the reins of worship leading to someone else. i just don't have the time to do everything for free, and there are still real responsibilities that i'm not grabbing onto like i know i could.

prayers are appreciated.

on the up and up, it's nice out today, and i've enjoyed it. plus, service week sign-up started today, and the response from the student body was amazing! we are over halfway full on our volunteer teams, and everybody is very excited. we may have to add some more projects to fit in everybody. stick that in your pipe and smoke it!


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