aaaaaagggggghhhhhh!!!!!! i am such a stupid idiot of a man!!!
i also have a horrendous case of timtayloritis, as in the innate man-desire to fix any problem on my own. jen and i recently had some things going on that needed talking about. i didn't feel like we were going strongly enough in the spiritual direction we needed to be headed in as a serious couple. did i talk with jen about these things? of course!... not!!! no! i didn't talk to her. instead, i made us take a week+ breather to pray and think about what we wanted, blah-la-dee-blah, etc.
how did that end up? misery. that's what. nothing was really enjoyable. life was a shade of gray for about 2 days. but i said we took a break for a week+...? yeah. couldn't do it that long. came crawling back, begging, "please can we call this thing off? i can't stand it!" so yeah, we are back in black, kickin' it po folks style. you know, i did have some great time to think, though, and it must have triggered something, because this past week has just flown by sweetly. it's like cloud 9. did we remedy any of our previous issues? yes. we are going through a devotional for seriously dating couples right now and it's wonderful. very applicable and helpful. my focus is strong and i am feeling more and more equipped to lead on in this relationship. i couldn't have asked for a better woman in my life. jen is incredible, and yes she is my lafawnduh (aka the best thing that has ever happened to me). or 2nd best (i told her tonight that Jesus, of course, has the #1 spot). so that's that.
one other front of recent interest: the new passion '05 cd has come out this week. of course, i'm too poor to go out and buy it, so sucks for me. anyway, got to enjoy hearing it on wes' ipod tonight. too much! i was there! listening to chris tomlin sing indescribable was over the top. it was quite funny in wes' office; i could hardly hold it in wanting to shout and dance before God for a while. i probably could have. just about made me cry hearing it. i think wes knew it. tomlin is so Spirit-led as a worship leader. i would die to lead like that someday. more on this after i sing myself to sleep...
incomparable
unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
check it out - 01.20.07
vapor - 11.15.06
can't complain - 11.10.06
turn the page - 11.09.06
who invented the word "me-maw"? - 09.28.06