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this jamboree thing is really coming along nicely now. i was afraid that we would not kick into a swing with everything soon enough to pull this show off. songs weren't coming along well enough, music wasn't arranged, costumes weren't pondered much, and staging was still stuck somewhere in limbo. i gotta give jon gordon some credit: for a man burdened with a million+ things as student activities director, i was very impressed with his thus-far accomplishments in prepping for jamboree. the final music selection is quite impressive, and this weekend he has the other hosts and i driving to hunter hills for a nice little "mini-retreat." i think we'll be quite prepared by the time we get back for some carefree musical merriment, a la gordon.
well, i have another finger dipped into the waters of possibility. what on earth am i thinking?! no worries, i don't plan on taking anything else under my wing until after jamboree is finito. my grades are about to teeter if i don't keep focused the next 2 weeks, and i have a scholarship to keep (plus debt to keep away!). but anyway, this thing i'm checking out: a girl's singing group for faulkner university. jennifer ford has asked me to manage it, and there is a nice cadre of girls who really have wanted to do something like this for a while. i think that even if i get involved it will be minimal this semester, and they aren't even looking at doing anything until this fall, with the exception of a couple of possible engagements post-jamboree. i have my first meeting with them this afternoon, just for some brainstorming and organizational things, nothing major yet. i gotta say, though, that this is a very promising group of committed young ladies. they're great.
my bestest ever friend... ever, aka the bff, aka jennifer maddox, aka the love of my life has a birthday this saturday. i know she is reading this, hoping that she will be mentioned, or that at least her birthday present(s) will get a nod. no suck luck, o lucky one! if anybody sees her after saturday, ask her what i got her, she will really like it. a very unique gift. 'nuff said.
note: good stuff starts here.
cutting through all of my shallow bs, maybe i should get a little deeper right now. i'm really doing ok, though yeah i am struggling with sin, make that sins -plural- that are just beating the crap out of me. it's so danged frustrating and, to be honest, i've not wanted to curse myself and God and the devil so bad in a long time. i'll say for now that a major root of some of my struggle lies in forgiveness. particularly, forgiving my sister and moving on with things. i've never loved and hated someone so much, except my biological father (i've forgiven him and gotten past that already, but it did take what seemd like forever). i can't comprehend why she would connivingly rebel against/betray my family, quit college (she was doing great, making straight a's, and seemingly loving it), and shack up with some total low-life stranger with nothing to his name. she allows this boyfriend of hers to curse out and threaten my mom's life and then she tells us, "but i love him, momma."
what kind of crap is that?!
so maybe i'm not totally doing ok, but Jesus is helping ok to be more bearable. though i may be an unforgiving little buttwipe right now, God is keeping my knees dirty with prayer, and i've found new comfort in His words recently that has really brought back nostalgia of the old glory days when i really couldn't get enough of getting to know God. i think i can almost see something on the horizon. my God!, how i want to get back to that place so bad...
end good stuff
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vapor - 11.15.06
can't complain - 11.10.06
turn the page - 11.09.06
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