going deep
my spiritual life has taken a nosedive these past couple of weeks. i've just neglected any time with God and traded it for catching up on homework: the consequence of my laziness. after getting fed up with the heaviness of so much to do, i am ready to start breathing again. it's something i so often forget to do when the self-inflicted plague of busyness takes over. just take some time with God to meditate on scripture and talk to Him.
i tend to let minuscule molehills become monstrous mountains when i'm stressed. it's high time i start looking for blessings and messages from God instead of excuses for self-pity and misery. what has been messing with my temperament these past weeks?
let's see:
sinus infection
academic pressure
loss of appetite
family situations
how can i find encouragement in these stressful things? maybe they are reminders that i am just like everybody else. they are not huge things, either. these problems and occurrences are part of life, and you either take them or leave them. everybody gets sick, everybody has their ups and downs, everybody has times when they aren't as hungry as normal, and nobody has a perfect family.
i am reminded of a passage from c.s. lewis' the screwtape letters where lewis is writing about the peaks and valleys of the Christian life. the devil would have every one of us believe that whenever life is not on the mountaintop then it's a sure sign that we are either not under the love of God or we are not living as we ought to. the reality, lewis continues, is that life is always an oscillation between the two extremes of everyday life, and it would only make sense that, when we are going through the most routine, boring, or difficult times, that is when God may be the most pleased with us. it is one thing to praise God when He has lifted you up out of the pit, but you know He's gotta be happier knowing that we praise Him before we receive even a hint of His blessings.
as i experience the peeling away of the things i take for granted, the things i have been privileged with, the gifts He has given me, will i ultimately be happy with God alone?
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